Feeling Better

For years I have struggled with depression, anxiety, cutting, and suicide. Those years were the darkest and most difficult times of my life. Every day I fought to stay alive. Every single day was a struggle to get out of bed, to go to class, to do my homework, to go to work. I thought I was handling it well, I thought I could get better by myself, but I found out I couldn't.

Now those years are over. I am getting help. I am getting better. I haven't had a suicidal thought in weeks. I haven cut in over a month. Sure I've gone through similar breakthroughs but none of them stuck, so why is this one so different? This one is different because I want it. I realized that this was messing up my life at school and I don't want that to happen. This time the breakthrough I am experiencing is going to stick, because this time I WANT to get better. This time I am putting an effort into getting better.

I love the way this real breakthrough feels. I feel like this weight has been taken off of my shoulders. I feel like it is okay to be happy. I'm a new person, and I'm really proud of who I am becoming. xoxoxo