Monday, February 3, 2014

The Part I Wont Get Back

There is a part of me that I will never be able to get back, she's the little girl who grew up too fast.

Missing the moments that children have.

Playing with dolls was replaced by comforting a younger brother in the play room as our parents fought upstairs.

Sleepovers with friends replaced by talking to friend of the court about who I wanted to live with.

Coloring and crafts replaced by switching homes every week.

There was so much going on and I guess the things that stand out in my mind are from the divorce. The one thing that makes me terrified of relationships and commitment. I can't ever see myself getting married because of this hurt that it caused me. I don't want to experience it again and if I have children I want to protect them from that hurt the best I can.

I can't even count the amount of homework that was lost going between houses, but more than that I lost the child I should have been.