Thursday, March 17, 2016

I Live because I Love

This week has been a rough one.

I started my new job on Monday and I'm in full time night shift training. I am forced to be in a small room with 17 other people for 7.5 hours a day. It's a lot to handle I haven't spent this much time around that many strangers in a long time.

I have thoughts that aren't healthy. I think that my life is hopeless and that I am worthless. I wish it would all just end for good.

Then I remember that every day I get to wake up next to the person I love, the person I am giving my forever to. I remember that my actions affect the people who know me. I remember I have people to take care of.

When I remember these things I realize that life isn't a choice for me, it is just something that I must do because I know what it is like to have a loved one kill them self.

I live because I don't want to hurt other people, not because I want to, but I guess that is a good enough reason.

I live because I love.

Xoxoxo