Back to School

So, soon it will be time for back to school. I LOVE going back to school, always have. There is just something about the learning and the homework that makes it so much fun. Unless it is math, then it's not all that fun. lol Anyways, college is so much better than any school I have gone to. Also, my college is pretty amazing, though that may be my bias opinion. I am so blessed to be able to attend college and work towards my Psychology degree, and I hope one day I will be blessed enough to have a job that allows me to use my degree to help people. My goal in life is to help as many people as possible. It's just a passion of mine.

Willis

Right now I am missing Willis a lot. He was such a good guy. I remember when I first met him I thought he would be this guy who thought he was all big and bad, but he was super sweet. He even let me use his old fish tank so my fish didn't have to live in a tupperware container.

I was so shocked when I heard the news. I just kept crying and thinking "no not my Willis" I still cannot believe that he took his life. It was really eye opening being someone who struggles with suicide on a daily basis. I realized that people have emotions. Suicide hurts people around you.

I remember how my feelings went. First, I was so sad, I cried and cried all day. Then, I was angry I couldn't believe he would do this I was so mad that he would leave us all like this. After that, I was numb. I couldn't feel anything when I thought about it. Finally, I realized it actually happened. He actually killed himself. He was actually gone. That is where I am still. Struggling to accept the fact that he is gone.

I miss him a lot, but he is the reason I'm not going to kill myself. I saw how broken and hurting everyone was. I could never do that to anyone in my life.

Rest in Peace Willis, and know that I still care. <3